How you do outrun something that you can't outrun...? 

How do you shake off something that you can't shake off without feeling gulity? 

How do you let in something that you are not ready for? 

How do you explain without feeling hurt or crying? 

How do you face those judgemental eyes and looks? 

How do you face your nightmares face on? How do you not drown when you are indeed drowning and could not stay afloat any longer? 

How do you stop hurting? 

How are you like when you are forced into a decision where you are not given any choice?

How are you like when you forced yourself to remember things that you work hard to forget? 

Do you feel it claw under your skin? Do you feel the pain carving out under your bones?

Do you feel like hurling? Do you feel sick to your stomach?

What would one like/need to hear when you find out she's been taken advantage of and violated?

What would one like/need to hear when she finds herself - pregnant from rape?

What would one want to hear when staring at that positive pregnancy test...
As waves of fear panick and loneliness struck.

I guess nothing.? Yet not nothing.

There were no words to describe, no words to fit the bill.

Some may tell the girl / woman - I’m sorry for what you’ve been through and what you will be going through also what you are going through.


One can never know what is going through their mind, their heart and body.

Those that have not been through will not know what is running through the girl / woman mind. What they are thinking, feeling. Maybe they are numb. Maybe they feel numb, they want to be numb.



People may be giving lots of advice, telling you what to do. But not sure how much of that is going through the girl. The waves of fear, uncertainty, disgust, panick is unquestionably stronger.
Right now, the girl is drowning, may be drowning, already drowning.

The body is now not their own...

People will say that:
It already happen.
I am sorry that such things happen to you. It is unfortunate.
I am sorry that you have to go through that.


No. Unfortunate? It wasn't our fault. It isn't right. It isn't fair! Being violated. It is dreadful. Heinous. Nightmarish. Sickening.

Struggling...? Thinking how you gonna love the child of a monster. What if the child looks like the man who assaulted you? What will be going through your mind when you look into the eyes of the child. 

The latter? How do you live if you take the other route? Can't even begin to imagine. How do you burn a hole?

How do you talk to others about this? When you can't talk to others about this! 

Bottling it up is painful.

How much more can one take before hitting the limits and breaking...?

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
9:47:00 PM
Y

 Looking at the bruises and blood on the body. How do one forget?

It is bleeding, how is it still bleeding?.

But yet, yeah... It is still hurting. My heart is aching. 

I am tired. Tired of all this..

When can I be safe, feel safe?

I badly need a hug, just hold me tight. Take me somewhere safe.

I am getting hurt, I am hoping to survive the war. I don't wanna give up this fight.

Even... even when my strength is drained. My will is slowly dying. I feel exhausted.

Spent from the weary.

Who am I to talk to all this about? Where someone will not judge, not showing any disgust..

Where someone will be understanding and shield me from all the hurt and the pain and not stab me from the back or slather me with poison, slow working poison.

Trapped in thoughts, I wish it would just leave...

I am trying to walk out from the shadows and my nightmares.

I am struggling but I am working not to give up.

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
12:22:00 AM
Y

 What do you do when by chance you found out that you have been lied to...

You placed your full trust but you got lied to...

It is not like it is a big deal but you feel hurt and betrayed all the same...

Especially when you care about them. Care about what they think and feel...

You feel used. You were misunderstood. You have got grievance... But could you tell them? You seen 2 faced people. 

Why am I sinking deeper? Where is my lifeline?

Mayday. Hurry up and save me.

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
9:28:00 PM
Y

Welcome to Emily Mandy blog
Love is like a river,
Which will cut a new path;
whenever it meets an obstacle.
Love is not demanding,
its unconditional

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends
and says, '...that's her.'
emily
mandy
.saggitarius.
.DOB " 10 Dec ".


BbabyymiLy.
cherished.x3
treasures.x33
.loves.&.treasured by.x3
pampered.x3
hugs like a teddie.x3
by.
-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-

-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-
walks.
BbabyymiLy.
away from all.
her troubles.
keeping her.
healthy safe & secure!


♥Everlastiinq Lolipops
♥Everlastiinq jelly beans
♥Everlastiinq love
♥Everlastiinq Chocolates
♥Everlastiinq reese peanut buttercups
teddie bear
anime
-Inuyasha-
minimandy
grims jr.
blue, black x3
hearts x33
stroll by the seaside and star glaze

abusers
liars
hypocrites
gossipers
BackSTABBERS
betrayers




.my baobei.
.my precious.



Worldpeace
Chocolatesworld .. white
*wishing n Wishing for you*
sushi
.mobile.
a new mp4
clam shell / flip phone is love
I don't get revenge. I get even.
There is a difference...
I will prove it


PSP
ice cream ...
chocolate
jelly bean
white choco
~!snow!~
#MINE#
*healthy*

Prove it.
Show it.
Make me believe.
Let me believe it existed.