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Monday, November 22, 2010

Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?


Lonely Miracle.
You mention that it is what you want.
I will not deny that cause I do believe that you speak the truth.
You may be mad and crazy, but I am no where different.
Thou, you tell me and ask me not to worry, I just can't help it;
For, I am a worrywart.

Thinking too much for others and stuffs.
I know, I should stop since you say you will not leave unless I am the one who leave.
But just so you know, sometimes if I leave, I just feel so hurt and don't know what else to do.
So, I leave.
One -> to leave us both alone, to have some time to think.
Two-> we need some cool off, if not the fight will become a lot more worse.
Three-> cause I love you too much, and I am afraid that I might hurt you thou you hurt me.
I want you to be happy.

You can be happy with everyone, mean you can be happy without me, if not, are you not happy for the past 18+ years?

If you lose your friend, you will be sad.
If you lose me, you lose your world, you will be devastated.
But if you never know me, does that mean that you will never be there? No. You can still be happy, who knows, I thought about that you could be happier without me.
Wouldn't that be better? I just love seeing you smile and stay happy.

LOVE IS WHEN YOU DIE EACH TIME THE ONE YOU LOVE LOOKS AWAY BECAUSE OF THE SADNESS AND PAIN THAT PERSON IS SUFFERING.


From being afraid to lose me and crying silently, from afraid to hurt me and treating like a fragile gift, from afraid of not being able to understand me and how I am feeling
to totally don't bother or care, leave like all I care and you asking me to leave, instructing me to leave, screaming at me and kicking me aside, leaving me alone.

where is my lonely miracle?

Picking me up from my place like how guys will do? I forgot when was the last time you do. I think we will have more chances to do things together like you say? seems like you forgot like how you say guys and you will...

Enough said for now. I don't know what to think, just pouring my random thoughts..
I am not thinking quite straight recently.

I do know I love you.
And to me, that is all that , that matters. =)

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If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
3:08:00 PM
Y

3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning . I LOVE YOU <3

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?

you are still doing it... guess I have to learn to give up, giving up something that doesn't belong to me anymore, you belong with her, why I say so? you should know...you are texting her 4 times more than you text me! you reply her the minute she sms you! then me? =( waiting like a fool, called you, you never pick up. Why are you so close with her now?

Sigh... Got no one to pour my sorrow to except here. I don't know who will be really reading here, but also, I don't want to know. It hurts to much for me to be bother about other things.

Like what mummy say, its just like she don't need me at all, instead of saying she don't need my help, she say she don't need me, it is like engraved in my head already. I feel hurt, so hurt, but now who will be sharing my sorrow? Not you I know, you rather be doing other things or smsing her instead of me, maybe you don't bother about me anymore, don't bother if I am worried or am I safe, you are happier with her, I should be gone, like seriously.

then this morning I tell her that it is good not to need me cause she started something about that again, well, but I said that cause when she don't need me, means she pick up quite a number of skills what, but when she don't need me is like I should get out of her life. I am sad for myself, happy for her, but doubt she know and understand.

Today I feel like hugging daddy when he came for me, I am so touched and moved can? I recall what I used to do when daddy was driving taxi sometimes at night, I sneak into mummy room and took daddy shirt, hug it when I sleep, guess no one know yet still till now. I used to sleep with daddy scent, now I sleep with his scent, but he is not with me anymore.

You know? there are times that I had nightmare, I feel like just snuggling up with daddy so that I will not be so scared, cause I know daddy still love me the most.

I still love him. =)
but where is my baby boy? Oh, I just remember that he is not mine anymore...
he is hers. just hers. maybe its time I left. I feel so much pain. I don't know what to do anymore...

I want to do what he hate the most... But will he bother now? I don't think so...
=) yes, that's right... just do what I want, I am more than just alone. I am living in my own world like she say. She say that I always just have to stick to him. But that's just who I am when I am with him, if not you want me to act and then keep a distance from him? WHY?!

now thinking about it, I just want to do what I feel like doing and don't care about what others feel. that's that. =))

ciao!~~
baobeii galz - my only love rejected aka babyymily.BbabyymiLy aka mandy Thanks for letting me see hope.Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908


If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
10:07:00 PM
Y

3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning . I LOVE YOU <3

Monday, November 15, 2010

Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?

happy 11mth anniversary!! >.<>

ILY! x3 but please.. I have a request.. can you don't do those things that I don't like, you know what I am referring to. But I can't help it... I really just don't like it! =\

baobeii galz - my only love rejected aka babyymily.BbabyymiLy aka mandy Thanks for letting me see hope.Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908


If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
9:45:00 PM
Y

3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning . I LOVE YOU <3

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?

Today then realise that he did not understand what I say, all along we were talking about totally different things, but then 121110 i clarify with him.

Stoned. stunned..

i am still waiting for his news.. =\

missing him lots! =x

baobeii galz - my only love rejected aka babyymily.BbabyymiLy aka mandy Thanks for letting me see hope.Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908


If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
12:05:00 AM
Y

3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning . I LOVE YOU <3

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?

children no matter how stupid they are they always try to get their parent heart whatever their parent wanted them to be as they want they parents to be happy and they love their parents they don't want to see their parents wasting the effort, money and time on them then the kids become nothing....so many children given up their dream n become wad their parents dreams.... many success many had fail.... that y we must let our children to become what they want not what we want...

I find the above sentence true, it is posted by an adult online.

this is after the 2nd day after I told him what is wrong...081110

baobeii galz - my only love rejected aka babyymily.BbabyymiLy aka mandy Thanks for letting me see hope.Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908


If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
10:22:00 PM
Y

3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning . I LOVE YOU <3

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?

no, you are not willing to walk this long and difficult road with me. I am painful.
I am hurting, today is like a totally bad day. got off at the wrong stop. I don't know what to say but my head was hurting so bad and I did not manage to press the bell. I... I what?!

Shit, my life is screwed up. You feel so changed, so different since the first day. Why?

Have you gotten sick of me? maybe?
where are those honey moon period? that doesn't matter you got someone better. You think I am not hurting? I feel like dying. All of a sudden, it is just like your not mine anymore, like you mention broke up to me. It is like I am a third party, it is like I am back to invisible shit.

What am I?
A toy after all?
Some one for you to fool with till you find your right princess?
This is no fairy tale and I am not your princess...
I am not the one that will sweep you off your feet.
I was a dreamer before you come around, dreaming that my prince in shining armor is going to come for me and save me from my wreck.

I am still dreaming and hoping...

depressed... gonna do something...


If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
9:12:00 PM
Y

3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning . I LOVE YOU <3


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Which will cut a new path;
whenever it meets an obstacle.
Love is not demanding,
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Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
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Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
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