Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?

Sharon went with me to get some things for you...
I was really really really nervous!
I think I might really freak out or faint..
The first time after they renovate.. I step in.. I was like woah~
then we went to daiso..the things there is like sooo cool and cute.. I was shock when I got to know that the price there is $2 for each and every item..OMGosh.. 2 bucks.. but there is like alot of things there.. hhaas.. its like all sooo cuteee >< uhmmm but i spend quite a lot.. i guess..
but .. for you... its ohkays.. =]]

i saw ima with her bf.. she didnt see me.. i guess. LOL..

i saw hana kakak...

OMGosh.. i am sooo having butterflies in meee.. ><

baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
3:53:00 PM
Y

Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?

Yes, I have come to a conclusion..

I remember when others told me they like this person or so. I will tell them to confess the feelings, "at least you tried, so you will not regret". Now i am telling that to myself!
The story goes:
I know when it is a crush, when it is only a puppy love. Love at first sight? Yes, it apply to you and another guy only. When I first know you, you stole my breath away, I was acting so not myself. I kept telling myself the feeling will one day fade away, but day after day, it grew. I innocently dont know what it is. I try to make it not so obvious, I try to keep look at other cute and good looking guys, I try to be flirty, yes i did. But still, your the first that comes to mind, then looking at them, yes they may be cute, may be good looking, but still I hope for you to be mine.
The feeling still stays, still grows hoping you will be mine, everything, your the first that comes to mind, the first I want to let you know the good new, the first I want to share with. Times I want to confess, but still backed out. I can not live without you in my life.
Then you had girlfriends, my heart aches so bad. I dont know what is the feeling. I thought I was just still liking you.. Yes innocently..Hoping you will be here with me on my birthday, hoping I was the one celebrating your birthday with you. But no, you said a lot of hurtful words, we fought we quarrelled but still we will keep in touch and contact. You said a lot of random words, you can scold me, it hurts but just being with you, it makes me happy.
"your say-ing crazy things, throwing random words out but not a word you mean"
after that first time...that day/night.30 May. i realised.. I LIKE YOU ALOT!!

sorry, now kinda busy and sick to update...plus talking to dasao now! =D

baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
10:05:00 PM
Y

Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?

i am sorry i was too naive...

yea after work, i missed you so much..i called you up, after that then i got to know the sad news, i dont know how to say how sorry i am. for the first time, i wanted to go to that kind of "function", that kind of crowded place, i want to be there for you.. but, i dont think you need me at all, after all , i am not your girl, you have you girl, you will wish for her to be there.. but me?

i asked if you care. but you said like it was mine, not yours , not ours, you can use the instead, but after but i got to know that.. it is UNwanted.. so what am i to do to feel. i dont know. i feel so hurt, so pain..

arent i naive? arent i? i really got the urge to tell you.. but i dont think i ever should.. do i?

baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
11:43:00 PM
Y

Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?

I dont know if i really bother.. but well, some one told me about that : there are 4 kinds of love. and mostly people will say that love cannot be explained.. but tell me about it, this GUY actually tell me that, "have you think of the consequences? and yea.. u dun love just love love.. u got 2 define wat is love.."

--everything after this line is copy and paste from what the guy tell me.. and well, i corrected some typo that i can read.. so yea... and basically, its obvious that this guy got it from some website, so i got the link for you guys that MIGHT be interested or not.. LOL
http://www.trap17.com/index.php/4-different-types-love_t40827.html
or you can just google/yahoo/search for it. --

" there r 4 kind of love, my dear "

We often mistake love as generally just being romantic and never really appreciating the other kinds of love that do exist.
SECURITY LOVE
FRIENDSHIP LOVE
ROMANTIC LOVE
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

let me tell u UNCONDITIONAL LOVE..Love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails.

This is the sincere love, the love that lasts forever. This kind of love comes when you have found the person you are destined to be with. Nothing can destroy unconditional love. It is like when you have an argument or disagree about something with that person and you realize that it doesn’t bother you because the love you have for him/her overcomes everything.

2ndly..SECURITY LOVE:This love is the love that everybody needs to survive. It is that feeling of being cared for and nurtured. Some people would describe this as the type of love parents have for their children. This is so important: high on Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs; and studies have even proven that people have die of a "broken heart" (there have been no explanations for their deaths other

3rdly.. FRIENDSHIP LOVE:This is a love between yourself and someone that is totally honest, open and comfortable. You really only have this kind of bond with a few people. You might know a lot of people and be "friendly" with them in a group situation but they are not the best friends I am talking about here.I have a theory that you can not truely be best friends with a member of the opposite sex.Down the line romance will always come up from either party and feelings will be misinterpreted and mistaken. When this happens, the friendship will change and possibly never be the same again.

lastly.. ROMANTIC LOVE:(The much anticipated love!) Most people experience this type of love many times in their life. It is when you see that person for the first time and he/she makes your knees go weak or gives you butterflies in your stomach.i.e. "Love at first sight”. Most people don’t even love the person they think they are in love with…they fall in love with the idea if being in love. This is more of a lustful kind of love, it wears off after a while and hopefully leads to...


ohkays.. up to now. maybe you are thinking the same thing as me , or maybe not...
to me, i find it contradicting, thats what love is..
Love is contradicting... =]]

that is what i am in now.. Contradicting love.. =]]
its sweet yet bitterly sour... x33

baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
9:03:00 AM
Y

Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?
I am only me when i am with you =]]

I would really so much curse myself for being so stupid.
My feelings for you was almost known, you cant expect to tell you,
" because I like you", " I do all this for you"

you make me think of things I never thought of before, I feel so disgusted by myself, I then think about those expression, reaction and things you did for me. What you wanted to help me, I just smiled.
Your cute, witty and really really just cheer me up with I am with you.
When I am with you, thats all I wanted, just looking at you, caring for you. You can scold me, but I still smile.

i think i like you... I wouldnt say I love you..
its a fantasy, what i hope for, a dream that will never come true.. so if your gonna hurt me, just leave me in my fantasy ; cause you will never like a "xiao meii meii" like me. =]]

checking my phone every minute, hoping to see your name on my cell, even when i know you will not call me up... i am not the one.. why am i still acting so insane!!!???

Should it hurt to love you?
Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door,
My ghosts are gaining on me.

can i be your silly little girl?

Thats the way i love you.. you got a smile that lights up the whole town, your eyes and smile are the ones that attract me to you.. x33 i soo love youu =]] THOSE beautiful eyes when you look right into my eyes, it makes my heartt beat soooo fast and make me so breathless and BLUSH! ><

I feel myself dying inside while talking to him about his gf..and i have to fake a smile and hoping him to be mine at the same time!! damn it! i said i wanted him to be happy, why wasnt his happiness with me?!

Fantasy is all I need now =]]
baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
5:14:00 PM
Y

Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?

eugene benjamin, hows everything?
I dont know if you can ever see all this, but still, i know you are always there for me.. like you always do.

you showed me alot, you did your best to help me understand, but now I am shivering in the cold, hoping you are here, showering your love of warmth on me.

I am the hypo kid back then, but still rusty. And i miss you. I dont know how I am going to get on this way without you, but i know , you will not want me to be upset.

Yes! I am looking at this beautiful place in your place.
I am growing up, without you by me. Its hard, I am trying, they dont understand me as well as you do. but times you have your doubts on me too.. But now i am too tired to explain.

i just want to find someone that can understand me as much as you do ; now. but .. they dont understand..

if i can choose again, you know what i will choose.

*wishes..peace out*

anyways, that friends that left me, including those that wasnt my fault, they are contacting me back, after ranting at me, they are talking to me very nicely back. i dont know what they want again, but i think i will promise you, if they want to make use of me again, i will not allow that!

~ hopes for everything to be fine & going well~


-please be with me eugene-
Rip my heart out, why wont you?
baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
12:29:00 AM
Y

Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?

OMGosh!! just someone at my area wanted to commit sucide...
his sitting on the window...
please.. dont be so foolish, cherish life,
i got the vid of it..
since what i myself did the other day the other time...i came to find that life was so fraglie already, now i am trying to live the best before i really leave. though its like feeling so sad to have to leave, not able to fulfill some of the wishes. but at least the one you love and care for.

updates later

baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
12:07:00 AM
Y

Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?

thoughts of you just filled my mind..
i cant control myself to stop thinking about you.
but what can i do? i cant tell you how i feel for i fear, fear of alot of things and matter it lead to.

i haven slept, sleep well for a month now...
sounds crazy, i know. but the nightmares are creeping me out.
what i hope is to be near you sleeping/resting in your arms, knowing i will be totally safe.
but now i know, everything is just a dream that melts to dust, a impossible dream, a dream that will never come true.

i dont know what to think, i dont know what to feel, i think i am hurt, so hurt. I try to change it into laughter, smiles, that crazy lil girl, you never saw this girl before.. or maybe yes, the girl with tomato red face, laughing at your actions, the things you try. but slowly, i came to realise, you dont see me as anyone special, i am normal as in like a no body to you, but the truth, i am abnormal, so abnormal, unique that i can never tell you about, i cant stand another blow, i am already on the verge of breaking down; what am i to do?

i am like knowing you are out there but your not mine.

no i am not jealous, no i am not. i just want everything she've got. wish you were mine, i dont know if i should really tell you about it or not. I am afraid so afraid. you took everything of mine away, but i am not your girl..no i am not.

do you really love me? (gd he told me things.. guys things)
watashi o ai shiteimasu ka?

baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
2:15:00 PM
Y

Welcome to Emily Mandy blog
Love is like a river,
Which will cut a new path;
whenever it meets an obstacle.
Love is not demanding,
its unconditional

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends
and says, '...that's her.'
emily
mandy
.saggitarius.
.DOB " 10 Dec ".


BbabyymiLy.
cherished.x3
treasures.x33
.loves.&.treasured by.x3
pampered.x3
hugs like a teddie.x3
by.
-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-

-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-
walks.
BbabyymiLy.
away from all.
her troubles.
keeping her.
healthy safe & secure!


♥Everlastiinq Lolipops
♥Everlastiinq jelly beans
♥Everlastiinq love
♥Everlastiinq Chocolates
♥Everlastiinq reese peanut buttercups
teddie bear
anime
-Inuyasha-
minimandy
grims jr.
blue, black x3
hearts x33
stroll by the seaside and star glaze

abusers
liars
hypocrites
gossipers
BackSTABBERS
betrayers




.my baobei.
.my precious.



Worldpeace
Chocolatesworld .. white
*wishing n Wishing for you*
sushi
.mobile.
a new mp4
clam shell / flip phone is love
I don't get revenge. I get even.
There is a difference...
I will prove it


PSP
ice cream ...
chocolate
jelly bean
white choco
~!snow!~
#MINE#
*healthy*

Prove it.
Show it.
Make me believe.
Let me believe it existed.