Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?

I have gotten the answer to the question that I have been asking for ages.

Sadly, the answer is 'NO'.

I have been trying to hide the facts, the truth. I have been deceiving myself for the longest time ever. One reason. Just because of one reason.
It is because of the love that I have for you.
However because of the same reason I choose to let go.
I hid the truth and covered up for you, showing as if I am placed at the top of your world and you are all loving and nothing else but I should have known better that the truth will not stay under the rug forever or in chinese "纸是包不住火的".

I said this before to someone, now I am throwing it back at my face. "No relationship is worth hiding, if you have to hide it to be happy. It is not worth having. Decide."
Relationship is built on 4 pillars - Trust, Loyalty, Concern and Commitment.

My Prince charming is supposed to be the one that..
Loves me, cherish me.
Will call me back if I hang up on him.
Will stay awake just to watch me sleep.
Wants to show me off to the world when I am in my sweats.
Will hold my hand in front of his friends.
And...
Will be the one who is constantly reminding me
of how much he cares about me and
how lucky he is to have me.


This is where the dreams of the fairytale ends.
How much does he care about me if he mentioned divorce just days after R.O.M?
I asked myself... How could I spend the rest of my life with the one I loved but maybe he doesn't love me as much because instead of trying to mend the relationship, his first thought is divorce.
I wondered if his mom ever treat me as the wife of her son. I don't know what exactly does she meant when she keep telling me not to end up like her. Decades of wasted youth with the wrong guy. And she refused to let me call her my MIL. She says that it makes her old. How much older can she be? The age difference between me and her son is just 1.
This could only mean 1 thing. - I am not the only one who thought this; even a neutral party. And it hurts just thinking. I thought but I hoped differently.
But in the end, she DID said it... So, that's case closed.

There are plenty of thoughts running through my mind. There is more to this story. My life, my story.
But I guess I will stop at this.
I just need a place to vent out. Plus, I doubt anyone will be reading this. Checked the traffic.

Ciao~
Ja mata ne!

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
9:18:00 AM
Y

Welcome to Emily Mandy blog
Love is like a river,
Which will cut a new path;
whenever it meets an obstacle.
Love is not demanding,
its unconditional

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends
and says, '...that's her.'
emily
mandy
.saggitarius.
.DOB " 10 Dec ".


BbabyymiLy.
cherished.x3
treasures.x33
.loves.&.treasured by.x3
pampered.x3
hugs like a teddie.x3
by.
-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-

-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-
walks.
BbabyymiLy.
away from all.
her troubles.
keeping her.
healthy safe & secure!


♥Everlastiinq Lolipops
♥Everlastiinq jelly beans
♥Everlastiinq love
♥Everlastiinq Chocolates
♥Everlastiinq reese peanut buttercups
teddie bear
anime
-Inuyasha-
minimandy
grims jr.
blue, black x3
hearts x33
stroll by the seaside and star glaze

abusers
liars
hypocrites
gossipers
BackSTABBERS
betrayers




.my baobei.
.my precious.



Worldpeace
Chocolatesworld .. white
*wishing n Wishing for you*
sushi
.mobile.
a new mp4
clam shell / flip phone is love
I don't get revenge. I get even.
There is a difference...
I will prove it


PSP
ice cream ...
chocolate
jelly bean
white choco
~!snow!~
#MINE#
*healthy*

Prove it.
Show it.
Make me believe.
Let me believe it existed.