Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?

I am not good with words, how should I voice out my feelings?

Yes, your friends said that I still have baby teeth because I cannot grow up.
Yes, maybe I really cannot grow up or that I need longer time but I been through more shit that your kinda age have been through.

I really want to let go, I wanna be 'reborn'.
I used to think that it's just me thinking too much, but right now. It really seems to me that you don't 'cherish' me as much as you used to anymore. I am just something that you 'Owned', nothing else. you are the one that is ordering me and controlling me now. I feel like a robot and nothing else.. Just your robot girlfriend, except the fact that I have feelings and I have been deal a great blow that not much can survive through as much as I did. I know your mum has survived through a lot but we are from different build and if she were to really know my full story, is that still what she is going to think? Cause that now she only know part of my story and she thinks that it is nothing much, but what if she was to know the full story? She will think that I am a dirty girl, I am a bad girl and that I am not good enough for you. Life is going to be worse for me isn't it? She gave me a badge that reads 'A wonderful future'. I wouldn't think that way. I feel too hurt; too painful. Went through a whole deal of pain and struggling. I left the house to protect the ones that I loved, yet got to make a choice that is so painfully hard to choose, who to 'save' and who to 'protect'. I was so greedy, I wanted both. But no one else know I feel, I want to scream out. But where can I do that? I really wonder. I wanted for both to be with me. I could have done something that could have saved both, but the one that I loved would have hate me for it. I could have ran away more. Then I could have more than just the one that I loved. I regretted not having enough courage to run away more. I wanted to not feel the pain but the pain is just there and so real. So, what do I do? The pain is eating me whole, eating me away. It hurts, I wanna use other ways to diverse the pain, but baby, can you understand? You feel so far, so far away. It feels like cause I am now beside you, you don't pamper me the way you promised. I was still weak and fragile. But why does it not feel like you are treating me as if I am fragile? I don't know.

I know you are not earning much as well, but it does not seems like you are putting an effort to save up. I just wish that I am saying all this just cause I am earning 3x more than you. But when I was just earning few hundreds more than you. I am still doing just fine and I was saving all right, so is this all just EXCUSES? I don't know, I really don't know. I wish I knew.

I am DAMN-ed. (Well, I'd be damned) -.-


I am proud of my heart, it's been played, stabbed, cheated, burned and broken, but somehow still works.

Still last but not least. 29months uhs? But I would not say that it is so strong now.
baobeii galz - my only love rejected aka babyymily. BbabyymiLy aka mandy Thanks for letting me see hope. Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
10:24:00 PM
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Welcome to Emily Mandy blog
Love is like a river,
Which will cut a new path;
whenever it meets an obstacle.
Love is not demanding,
its unconditional

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends
and says, '...that's her.'
emily
mandy
.saggitarius.
.DOB " 10 Dec ".


BbabyymiLy.
cherished.x3
treasures.x33
.loves.&.treasured by.x3
pampered.x3
hugs like a teddie.x3
by.
-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-

-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-
walks.
BbabyymiLy.
away from all.
her troubles.
keeping her.
healthy safe & secure!


♥Everlastiinq Lolipops
♥Everlastiinq jelly beans
♥Everlastiinq love
♥Everlastiinq Chocolates
♥Everlastiinq reese peanut buttercups
teddie bear
anime
-Inuyasha-
minimandy
grims jr.
blue, black x3
hearts x33
stroll by the seaside and star glaze

abusers
liars
hypocrites
gossipers
BackSTABBERS
betrayers




.my baobei.
.my precious.



Worldpeace
Chocolatesworld .. white
*wishing n Wishing for you*
sushi
.mobile.
a new mp4
clam shell / flip phone is love
I don't get revenge. I get even.
There is a difference...
I will prove it


PSP
ice cream ...
chocolate
jelly bean
white choco
~!snow!~
#MINE#
*healthy*

Prove it.
Show it.
Make me believe.
Let me believe it existed.