Thursday, January 6, 2011
Are you willing to walk this long and difficult road with me?
-with oxygen mask on-
*pats pats* #try to shake off the dust on my blog#
It's been quite a while since I last post, that's as far as I remember...
Well, first wanna thank baby for going with me to see my laptop though he's jealous, well but he don't have to anymore, cause he is now planning to get a laptop better than my baby monster =))
Congrats to myself for getting a gaming laptop with good specs! But I have to pay for this baby monster.. 2.4k. expensive right? I know... But I am happy I got my baby monster. Just have to work hard to pay mummy back then!
Through all this time and while, I have given thought that I have to give up being such a cry baby, wet blanket and leech to him...
Yes, baby boy need his own personal life and space...Where is his breathing space? I have been taking up so much of his time, well, I may want to see him and spend more time with him, but the problem is... whether his thinking is similar to mine...
Mummy today say some things, some that I don't like to hear, cause it is giving me so much stress but they don't understand and there is no way to make and let them understand. There is no one else to talk to so I am gonna just keep it to myself, just hoping akuma will not erupt as well.
Other thing is that... only this part my mind capture it quite well : 'you are drifting away'...
I know that I am but there is like no choice... Why? cause your don't understand me at all. From close to further, it's not my fault, I tried, but the way your take things is making me hard to breathe and survive; to the extend that I really really badly wanted to end everything.
Do you know who and what is the 'one' that stop me from ending everything? Yet, I know, to your these special 'one' who and what is not good, is bad and not mature with not much thinking skills. Well, frankly speaking, I don't know how he think and how he is going to 'feed' me like how daddy ask me to ask him. But, yes, I may really want to be with him; but is he really thinking of spending his future with me and if it is going to come true is another thing. But...I really don't know. I just feel so vexed that I want to close myself from the world. I wanna be another kind of girl but I am just ending up so much different. I am not a normal girl, not a normal kid. It's just coming back again, yet I can say nothing to baby.
I want him to know , want him to share the burden and troubles with me, but he just seems so weird... so different. I don't know how to say it. But, there are times that he keep making me fall in love with him over and over again. But he is always scaring me now a days. why? does my reaction make him smile so much? It kind of hurts though. But if he is happy. Let him do it, I don't know how to tell him to stop though it hurts. =\
confused and vexed.. thinking what I should do...
baobeii galz - my only love rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908
If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
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Love is like a river,
Which will cut a new path;
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Love is not demanding,
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Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends
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