Are you willing to walk this long and diffcult road with me?

thoughts of you just filled my mind..
i cant control myself to stop thinking about you.
but what can i do? i cant tell you how i feel for i fear, fear of alot of things and matter it lead to.

i haven slept, sleep well for a month now...
sounds crazy, i know. but the nightmares are creeping me out.
what i hope is to be near you sleeping/resting in your arms, knowing i will be totally safe.
but now i know, everything is just a dream that melts to dust, a impossible dream, a dream that will never come true.

i dont know what to think, i dont know what to feel, i think i am hurt, so hurt. I try to change it into laughter, smiles, that crazy lil girl, you never saw this girl before.. or maybe yes, the girl with tomato red face, laughing at your actions, the things you try. but slowly, i came to realise, you dont see me as anyone special, i am normal as in like a no body to you, but the truth, i am abnormal, so abnormal, unique that i can never tell you about, i cant stand another blow, i am already on the verge of breaking down; what am i to do?

i am like knowing you are out there but your not mine.

no i am not jealous, no i am not. i just want everything she've got. wish you were mine, i dont know if i should really tell you about it or not. I am afraid so afraid. you took everything of mine away, but i am not your girl..no i am not.

do you really love me? (gd he told me things.. guys things)
watashi o ai shiteimasu ka?

baobeii galz - my only love
rejected aka babyymily.
BbabyymiLy aka mandy
Thanks for letting me see hope.
Your smile brightens up my day! =D 120908

If I say I love you, will you say you love me too or will you treat/take me as a fool??
Is this love?hearts flutterings
2:15:00 PM
Y

Welcome to Emily Mandy blog
Love is like a river,
Which will cut a new path;
whenever it meets an obstacle.
Love is not demanding,
its unconditional

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends
and says, '...that's her.'
emily
mandy
.saggitarius.
.DOB " 10 Dec ".


BbabyymiLy.
cherished.x3
treasures.x33
.loves.&.treasured by.x3
pampered.x3
hugs like a teddie.x3
by.
-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-

-Unknown and MIA or AKIA-
walks.
BbabyymiLy.
away from all.
her troubles.
keeping her.
healthy safe & secure!


♥Everlastiinq Lolipops
♥Everlastiinq jelly beans
♥Everlastiinq love
♥Everlastiinq Chocolates
♥Everlastiinq reese peanut buttercups
teddie bear
anime
-Inuyasha-
minimandy
grims jr.
blue, black x3
hearts x33
stroll by the seaside and star glaze

abusers
liars
hypocrites
gossipers
BackSTABBERS
betrayers




.my baobei.
.my precious.



Worldpeace
Chocolatesworld .. white
*wishing n Wishing for you*
sushi
.mobile.
a new mp4
clam shell / flip phone is love
I don't get revenge. I get even.
There is a difference...
I will prove it


PSP
ice cream ...
chocolate
jelly bean
white choco
~!snow!~
#MINE#
*healthy*

Prove it.
Show it.
Make me believe.
Let me believe it existed.